One day I'm fine. Perfect. Happy. The next....
I wake up mad at the world. It wasn't a good feeling, let me tell you. But there was a reason for my attitude, as there is for most of my attitude-induced problems. See, I didn't sleep very well last night. I have a new pregnancy companion - he's decided to join me on these last few weeks of this journey. I can't say I enjoy him at all. He's very foul and disgusting, truth be told. He leaves a very, very nasty taste in my mouth. Quite literally.
His name?
Acid Reflux.
Twice now in my sleep I have been woken by the feeling of choking. No, it's more like drowning. On my own vomit. It has got to be one of the worst feelings I have ever experienced. I spring out of bed, trying desperately to catch my breath and I feel like I'm going to DIE. Like, seriously - thoughts of death/funerals/sad children/sad Bobby go through my head. It feels very possible that I won't ever breathe again. I'm not being dramatic - it's so scary.
So - because of all the drama AF has brought me, I decided I must sleep with my upper body slightly elevated. Supposedly, that stops it from occurring to the degree it does when one lies down flat. Sure, it helps the AF - but to me, sleeping elevated is like trying to sleep while standing. It isn't easy. And it's super-ridiculously uncomfortable.
So was I a cranky b***** this morning? Absolutely.
And because of this, I would like to take this moment to make a little apology.
Dear Bobby,
I am sorry I was a freak this morning. I really wanted to kick in a wall or something. You know this is temporary, right? I love you. Thanks for being sweet when I am more sour than those powdery gum balls the kids like that I hide in the cabinet.
Good luck with the call today.
Krista.
Oh, and this isn't an apology but more of a thank-you note for a little girl.
Dear Clemmie,
Thank you for saying, "Mama....dance for me, please?" when Tori came on.
It was just what I needed. I will always dance with you.
Love you infinity to the infinity power.
Mama.
4 comments:
Oh dear, I am so sorry. If it is any consolation. I already have that :( and I'm only 13 weeks along....(and I have the nausea all day to go with it). So between kicking a wall you can feel semi a little bit grateful that you only have a few weeks of it left to endure. It so sucks.
TAKE ZANTAC. It seriously saved my sanity (and possibly my oesophegus (sp) for all 4 of my pregnancies. I am on it already)
Hope tonight is better. (())))
ugh! Acid reflux is terrible! Try propping the head of your bed up - you can buy bed stands at most superstores or home good stores. Just place them under the two headboard legs and leave the footboard legs on the ground. It takes just a couple days to get used to it - but it made a WORLD of difference for me!! And it is much better than trying to sleep sitting up or propped on pillows all night! Good luck!!!
Try to eat dinner atleast a couple of hours before going to bed.
I feel your pain (so sorry), I used to get this when eating late.
I found that eating a heavier lunch and lighter dinner helped me.
Hope today is a lot better!
I have AR too, but I found when I changed around some meds I was on it went away.
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